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Name: Ivy
Birthday: 9/15/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: Jesus, family, photography, piano, guitar, singing, choreography, films, dogs, Korea, city life, Jim Brickman, snail mail, the beach, sunset, winter, fall, theater, dance, art


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Friday, November 13, 2009

you reap what you sow

There is that saying:

"Fool me once, shame on you.  Fool me twice, shame on me."

I'd like to think of myself as a very forgiving person.  I don't get angry easily unless I'm provoked.  With all that said, I find certain people really enjoy pushing my buttons to see how long it will take before I lash out.  I don't look for confrontation, but I will definitely face confrontation when it comes down to it.  That's what people fail to realize.  I'm not passive when I'm attacked, and while I won't throw a punch (or the first one, mind you), I won't cower behind people.  If anything, I'm very protective of myself, family, and my friends.  So, if it comes as a shock when I face up to your provocation, I'm sorry you thought I was an easy target.

I've had someone verbally abuse me many times; trust me, I don't take that kind of stuff so lightly anymore.

I don't understand it when someone raises chaos, yet hides behind someone else, or in this matter, behind a computer screen or the phone.  Why would you create a situation for yourself that you can't even manage to follow through?

My once friend disrespected and humiliated me in ways unimaginable.  TWICE.

During the first occurrence, I confronted the person and what did they do?  Lie in my face.  Even when I brought up everything that had happened, they still denied it.  I had to think, was I drunk?  No.  I rarely drink.  After that incident, I stopped much of my communication with the person.  My life went on the same, but of course there was still the pain of knowing someone who considered me their "only and best friend" in Atlanta would throw a knife at me.. not even at my back, but straight through the heart.

After a month or so of not speaking to one another, I get a phone call from the person.  Surprised?  You  bet.  The extent of my end of the conversations consisted of short answers of "hey", "ok", "uh huh", "bye".  After a while, I noticed this person made endless attempts to mend our friendship; and after a while, I decided to drop everything that happened and start again.  Then it came down to last night.

Without going into details, let's just say this person had someone else call me to do their dirty work.  Needless to say, I was disrespected to the utmost.  When I asked to speak with my once friend, I heard in the background, "No".  Then they hung up.  This happened 3-4 times last night at nearly 2AM.  Why?  I still have no earthly clue.  Maybe because I was their only friend?  That doesn't make sense either.  I was apparently never a friend, just a toy for their own entertainment.

Well, good for the person now.  Their only friend is no longer a friend.
I'll tell you, I don't want to deal with an aggressive compulsive liar anymore.  I just can't handle it.

Maybe I can't just forgive people and think they are better than the horrible actions they choose.  It's happened before on many occasions and I have yet to see the "good" that came out of me forgiving them.  They end up taking me lightly and using it to their advantage.  Strange and corrupted society we live in.


Anyhow, I can only pray now that this person get's their life together and lives decently for once. 



creepy

How can a get rid of a stalker that was once a friend?

This is MADDDDD creepy.


Saturday, November 07, 2009

gone

For two years, I've been growing out my hair, never cutting it more than 2 inches every 4-5 months. It grew past my mid-back.

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Back in September, I chopped off 10 inches of my hair to right above the shoulders. I made sure to tell the stylist to keep it long enough for me to tie it back. This is how it looked.

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Today, I chopped off another 4-5 inches. I have super short hair. So short I can't even tie it. So short, that from the back, I look like a dude. I love it though. (Blurry photo).

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Thursday, November 05, 2009

I want..

I want this...


Sunday, November 01, 2009

hallow's eve

Wow, I woke up after nearly 9.5 hours! Must've been tired.

Now at my cousin's house for some chili, nachos, beer, and the GA v. FL game!
GOOOOO DAWGS! Sic em'!

Chris was so drunk! hahaha.


Chris as Reno 911 officer

1/5 of the crowd.

The host of the night getting friendly with Chris

Mindy aka Audrey Hepburn 'looking' at my butt

Jungeun and John as Popeye and Olive Oyl

Minhyun aka the host as Inspector Gadget & Popeye

Audrey Hepburn + Lady Gaga

Monica as Amy Winehouse + me as Lady Gaga

Joon as a penguin

My FAVE costume/act of the night. Dan as Alan from the movie Hangover

Becca as Donkey from Shrek!

Dan + the host of the night half naked. Both GONE!



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