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you reap what you sow

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 20:29:38 GMT

There is that saying:

"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me."

I'd like to think of myself as a very forgiving person. I don't get angry easily unless I'm provoked. With all that said, I find certain people really enjoy pushing my buttons to see how long it will take before I lash out. I don't look for confrontation, but I will definitely face confrontation when it comes down to it. That's what people fail to realize. I'm not passive when I'm attacked, and while I won't throw a punch (or the first one, mind you), I won't cower behind people. If anything, I'm very protective of myself, family, and my friends. So, if it comes as a shock when I face up to your provocation, I'm sorry you thought I was an easy target.

I've had someone verbally abuse me many times; trust me, I don't take that kind of stuff so lightly anymore.

I don't understand it when someone raises chaos, yet hides behind someone else, or in this matter, behind a computer screen or the phone. Why would you create a situation for yourself that you can't even manage to follow through?

My once friend disrespected and humiliated me in ways unimaginable. TWICE.

During the first occurrence, I confronted the person and what did they do? Lie in my face. Even when I brought up everything that had happened, they still denied it. I had to think, was I drunk? No. I rarely drink. After that incident, I stopped much of my communication with the person. My life went on the same, but of course there was still the pain of knowing someone who considered me their "only and best friend" in Atlanta would throw a knife at me.. not even at my back, but straight through the heart.

After a month or so of not speaking to one another, I get a phone call from the person. Surprised? You bet. The extent of my end of the conversations consisted of short answers of "hey", "ok", "uh huh", "bye". After a while, I noticed this person made endless attempts to mend our friendship; and after a while, I decided to drop everything that happened and start again. Then it came down to last night.

Without going into details, let's just say this person had someone else call me to do their dirty work. Needless to say, I was disrespected to the utmost. When I asked to speak with my once friend, I heard in the background, "No". Then they hung up. This happened 3-4 times last night at nearly 2AM. Why? I still have no earthly clue. Maybe because I was their only friend? That doesn't make sense either. I was apparently never a friend, just a toy for their own entertainment.

Well, good for the person now. Their only friend is no longer a friend.
I'll tell you, I don't want to deal with an aggressive compulsive liar anymore. I just can't handle it.

Maybe I can't just forgive people and think they are better than the horrible actions they choose. It's happened before on many occasions and I have yet to see the "good" that came out of me forgiving them. They end up taking me lightly and using it to their advantage. Strange and corrupted society we live in.

Anyhow, I can only pray now that this person get's their life together and lives decently for once.

creepy

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 17:04:04 GMT

How can a get rid of a stalker that was once a friend?

This is MADDDDD creepy.

gone

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 18:33:56 GMT

For two years, I've been growing out my hair, never cutting it more than 2 inches every 4-5 months. It grew past my mid-back.

Back in September, I chopped off 10 inches of my hair to right above the shoulders. I made sure to tell the stylist to keep it long enough for me to tie it back. This is how it looked.

(photo taken down)

Today, I chopped off another 4-5 inches. I have super short hair. So short I can't even tie it. So short, that from the back, I look like a dude. I love it though. (Blurry photo).

I want..

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 20:46:05 GMT

I want this...

hallow's eve

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 03:30:23 GMT

Wow, I woke up after nearly 9.5 hours! Must've been tired.

Now at my cousin's house for some chili, nachos, beer, and the GA v. FL game!
GOOOOO DAWGS! Sic em'!

Chris was so drunk! hahaha.

Chris as Reno 911 officer

1/5 of the crowd.

The host of the night getting friendly with Chris

Mindy aka Audrey Hepburn 'looking' at my butt

Jungeun and John as Popeye and Olive Oyl

Minhyun aka the host as Inspector Gadget & Popeye

Audrey Hepburn + Lady Gaga

Monica as Amy Winehouse + me as Lady Gaga

Joon as a penguin

My FAVE costume/act of the night. Dan as Alan from the movie Hangover

Becca as Donkey from Shrek!

Dan + the host of the night half naked. Both GONE!

annual sickness

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 13:17:49 GMT

Apparently I have asthma to the cold.

Ah. I've been prescribed 5 different medications in a span of two days. I was out most of yesterday, and not eating anything (until midnight) probably added to my drowsiness. But I did sleep well thanks to one of the meds.

I hate it when I get sick during time crunch weeks, but what can you do. Time to get to work.

Cutest Dog Competition

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 13:18:50 GMT

Vote for Junior! :)

vacation

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 14:04:52 GMT

I'm chuckling at a few turning events.

Savannah/Tybee Island was amazing. Simply AMAZING. Best vacation I've had since the road trip last summer. One full day of just relaxing, playing, swimming at the beach, swimming at the pool, eating at the places I've longed to eat at, visiting parts of town I've always wanted to visit, watching people interact with others, and just walking around enjoying company.

Left at 8AM. Arrival at noon. Lunch at Lady & Sons. Beach for 3.5 hours. Pool for 2 hours. Dinner at Oyster Bar on River Street. Stroll down River Street for 1.5 hours. Left the next day at 10:30AM.

Next destination point: Panama City, FL

:)

wonderful

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 05:21:49 GMT

tee hee. :)

eventful

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 20:43:44 GMT

I remember going on a conference called Youth Initiative back in 2003, and I was extremely blessed. YI connects various youth leaders from around the nation and we do some intensive leadership training through worship services, workshops, small groups, and team building activities. It's a smaller group of people than usual (40-50), so I was able to really build intimate relationships with everyone. From that point on, I knew I wanted to serve in the ministry in some way or form but didn't entirely figure out how I would do so. I have a better idea now, but I'm still needing discernment.

On August 4-8, I plan on attending two conferences: College Initiative (Aug. 4-5) and TransGeneration (TG) Convocation (Aug. 5-8).

The mission for College Initiative:

1. Network with pastors/students/leaders in college ministry
2. Train and equip to build up ministries
3. Bring awareness for the importance of ministry to college-aged students

Considering the Agape Ministry is comprised of a majority of college students, I feel like this will be a good opportunity for me to really work with those closer to my age and hopefully use the training at CI as a catalyst to really step up in whatever ministry God calls me to.

TG Convocation initially started as a response to the "silent exodus," but grew into a forum that allows for inter-generational dialogues regarding common issues, visions, and ministry experiences of the Korean-American church.

Our ministry is undergoing some changes, and since we've decided to start over from the foundation, I look forward to taking what I learn at both these conferences to really help the building process in whatever capacity. I guess it's more to figure out how I exactly I could take part in the process.

I'm excited! :)